so i've been stressed, i've been upset, i've been lonely. go teenage angst!
i need a girlfriend. except that i seem to instantly become "just a friend" to a girl when i get within a mile of them. it's a curse.
don't get me wrong, i like having friends, but i never seem to get past that. i must be missing something that makes girls think "what about him?". maybe it goes along with the boy-genes that make other boys go out and get drunk, take advantage of people and become total arseholes.
ugh.
so i may have got a little stressed out in the last post. sources say it was unjustified. the assignment, while nowhere near prize-worthy, is at least in some vague completed form which should recieve a mark about pass grade. for these things we can be thankful. now, for the rest of this assignment, due in on friday, and the next assignment, due the friday afterwards. go student life!
so if you haven't already, i urge, nay, demand you take a look at the video for junior senior's single "move your feet". look, i've even got it hosted here! just download it and watch. it's bizarre and very wonderful. pixilated squirrels have never been so much fun to watch :)
tomorrow i should hopefully be watching jackass: the movie again, with my friend ben. he's not been feeling too good recently, and i think it'll do him good to get out the house, heck, it'll be good to see him again, even if i am the annoying friend from his past.
just in case you missed it first time around, i'll say again that wetflame is blessed with a rss feed, which is wonderful. rss is a good thing, and since i now have an rss feed to tycho from penny arcade you kids have no excuse. everyone's doing it. come on, i told my friends you were cool. you want to be cool right?
i'm really starting to get nervous about this assignment.
i can't do it, i've not been taught how, and they expect me to demonstate it tomorrow. i don't know what's going on, what i have to do or what i'm going to do about it.
i just can't get my head around it. it's not anything too difficult if i knew where to start, but i haven't used the program before, i don't know what i'm supposed to do with it, and i can't see myself being able to finish it.
aaaaaarggghh.
so i went to see equilibrium
but seriously, it wasn't too bad. seeming as i've read nineteen eighty-four it was easy for me to draw parallels with the book, and it's hard to imagine it didn't have an effect on the film, but i guess that's the way hollywood is these days. the action was great, though sporadic, and the storyline sometimes left me wondering where the film was going2, but overall it was a good one :) nice to get out and see films every so often, my top five films coming out over the next year i want to see? 1. matrix reloaded 2. matrix revolutions 3. the hulk 4. x2 5. johnny english.
i see so many films now i'm a student living in manchester, it's great. i can finally consider myself a cinema buff. i warrant this title on the fact that i went to see donnie darko before general release in a tiny cinema round the corner3, i bought tickets to the entire cohen brothers season at the odeon down the road, and i've seen two spike jonze-directed films in the last couple of weeks. i love cinema. mmm.
i bought some new clothes the other day, which is unusual for me. i'll take a photo of me in them soon, but don't worry, i'll give you warning. i should probably put up the photos from the huge protest that took place today and travelled most of the way around manchester. it was bizarre.
i was surprised by my mum's comment to my last post, it was weird to see it there. i know she reads, and probably that's bad when i start getting all teenage angst-y and stuff, but at least she's happy that i'm stating my opinions, which i've done a lot of recently, and i've come to the realisation that everyone has their own opinion, and when you state yours, other people disagree. the nature of the disagreements is when things go bad.
i am very annoyed that radiohead tickets went on sale and sold out without me even knowing the dates had been announced, especially as i'd been planning to go since i heard they were touring the uk. grrr. it would have been so amazing to see them at the apollo. tickets are going on ebay for huge amounts, so i won't get one there, and i don't know if the touts outside will be any cheaper. grrr. i'll have to see them at glastonbury i guess.
there was something i wanted to talk about here, and i'm not quite sure what it was. so this paragraph is going to sit here until i think what it is, ie always. isn't it annoying when there's something you want to remember and you just can't? i do. also: avril lavigne (pronounced lavv-igg-knee) really annoys me too.
no radio show tonight, and none for the next 6 months or so. i want more shows next time, this was over too soon. but it was a heck of a lot of fun :) at least now i'm free to do other stuff, like redesign my site4 and work on uni assignments.
this just in: university assignments are a pain. with that, i'll go.
1 it ended at midnight, so i guess immediately after i'd watched it i'd sen it the day before.
2 if it was going anywhere at that point
3 and then raved on about it to my friends, who also went to see it, therefore making me responsible for it's popularity.
4 and this time it's actually going to be a redesign rather than changing the theme and keeping the same basic layout *gasp*
i really don't know where i stand on this whole war thing.
i am anti-saddam, but also anti-war. i am against the steps that the american and british governments have taken to ensure this war goes ahead. i feel like it's being done less because saddam is a threat, otherwise they would have done it sooner, and more to prove a point. i feel that the links between iraq and terrorism are weak, but that the actions of saddam on his people are inexcuseable. his forces murder, rape, burn, destroy, torture, kidnap and more on a daily basis, and i don't want it to continue.
i just don't like how this is happening. the way things are going, bush is going to have to go onto bigger things and keep on fighting, keep on being aggressive to show he isn't backing down, and blair will follow because he believes we need america.
i don't feel particularly proud of my country, and unlike america in america there isn't a huge sense of patriotism here, so i don't feel ashamed to say it. i don't want any of our forces to get hurt or killed, but i don't want that to happen to any other countries either. i don't like what america is doing, and i don't like that our country is going along with it.
i don't feel like protests are going to help, but i'm glad that so many people are showing that they don't want this. this is a very unpopular move, and it will go down in history as such.
i know that saddam has many weapons, chemical or otherwise, and that he does pose a threat but i don't believe that it's right to march in and do things by force. technically, blair and bush can be considered war criminals.
does the fact that saddam does worse than us make the bad things we do better? i know people who feel very threatened, who want something to happen to stop this and to remove him from power, to destroy his weapons, but did they feel this way five years ago? a year ago? six months ago?
i just don't know what to think. troops are going to go in, and they are going to kill people. some of them will be killed in the attempt. we will storm in and try and kill saddam hussain and if it happens america will decide what's best for the country, and probably benefit.
i am not particularly anti-america in general, i'd like to live there, but it's so big and so powerful i sometimes feel like it's thinking with it's muscles. it's becoming an agressor.
i don't want to put down america. i joke about bush, and freedom fries but there's a lot i like. i have my opinions, the same as everyone else. i can sit back and say what i don't like about the country because i don't live there, i'm removed from the huge patriotism that seems to show everywhere around there. i live in a country which has faults, and i can see them too.
i want this war to be over as soon as possible. it is a bad idea.
i guess my site is working again!
huzzah. i bought it for another year. as of yesterday, wetflame.org is 1 year old.
i think i like the name better now, it's growing on me :)
after a photoshoot, expect a redesign in a new direction visual style thingy!
i think i'm having some sort of crazy bad luck attack. seriously.
i was playing solitaire on vegas style1 and i lost every game for about 2 hours. i gave up in the end. i decided i was having unluckiness put upon me by some unknown force, probably fate. i don't know what i've done to deserve it, but it seems to fit with my life in general recently.
also: why don't people comment when i write long posts?
1 dollar dollar bill, y'all
so what have i been up to recently? lots. what have i talked about? little.
i'ts not a concious decision, i just haven't felt like writing when i've been able to. i'll solve it now though, biggish post coming up! i'll go from what i wrote in the post before last to begin with. i went to see adaptation last wednesday, which i enjoyed a lot. i related to kaufman's inner monologue totally, i'm constantly thinking about what kind of a mess i'm in, or worrying about how things are going to turn out. i know i shouldn't, but i tend to be more and more pessimistic as the days go by now. it's easy to say that i need something big to shift me back onto track and feel better again, but it's harder to make it happen. things just don't seem to work that way for me. it's also helped with my trying to write, as i'm now co-writer of a screenplay-to-be with louise from the flat downstairs. we've been brainstorming a little and trying things out, and hopefully i'll be able to flex my creative muscles. it'd be nice if i could have a hand in making something like that, because i have enough problems with thinking i'm talentless as it is :)
lots of stuff is happening, i feel like i am being pushed out from my group of friends, i don't know whether it's because other friends of mine are becoming a bigger part of the group or if it's because i'm feeling low and not my usually energetic self. we'll see in time whether it's anything or just me being paranoid i guess. maybe i'm just doing things wrong.
i've had my last radio show, and aside from a few mistakes2 it's been fine. i had a good time doing it, so i'll definitely apply again next year, though i'll have to build up my music collection. i have just bought midnite vultures by beck today though3, so at least i'm starting :) it was part of a trip into manchester that was to serve as a photoshoot for my new site design, but i decided against it. i'll take photos when my camera's got newer batteries, and when i'm with people who wouldn't laugh at me if i tried to get them to take photos of me. the latter being less likely to actually happen, unfortunately.
i've also been to see tenacious d in concert! i went last night and it rocked totally. i'm so glad i got to see jack black in person, and to top it all off i have in my possession these guitar picks from the show which were thrown into the crowd, so that was a bonus. also: every time i see jack black, i'll know i was not only in the same room as him, but only a few feet away. i love that. i think he might be the first movie star that i've seen in real life, and it being jack black5 makes it all the sweeter. i still have no real claim to fame, but at least i'm only two degrees from kevin bacon.
someone from the flat downstairs told me a few things i didn't want to hear very bluntly earlier, and then a few minutes later wondered why i looked down. way to get drunk!
this is becoming more and more like my train of thought over a long period of time.
i worked hard at getting a group project finished off, thoguh admittedly not as hard as one of the group members who worked through the day designing screens for it, and i had a test on friday, and i have another assignment due in on thursday, more tests and more and more work. you know that feeling when you think things are going to overwhelm you? well it's here. bah.
this thing is long enough now, i'll post it before i say any more.
1 which they did. very muchly so.
2 mainly caused by a constant influx of people into the studio during records
3 agie isn't going to like it, but this is basically going to be another paragraph of my post put into a footnote4. this album is amazing, i'm so glad i actually got around to buying it. i've been a fan of beck, to the extent someone who didn't own any of his releases can be, for a long time now, and so far 4 of the songs i've loved by him have been on the album. fantastic. it's so good to listen to. every track so far has been great. i want to buy more albums, but i don't know which, so i guess i'll get recommendations. but yes, so happy that i bought this now. i wish i was beck.
4 justified as follows. during the middle of this post i decided to put on midnite vultures, after i remembered i'd bought it. i therefore wasn't going to go back and add it in, but it needed saying.
5 i seem to be saying jack black a lot. jack black jack black jack black.
it's our last radio show today! listen in! 7-9pm gmt! so now, for the next two hours! listen listen listen listen!
update! we're playing rilo kiley - the execution of all things at the moment and there's around 15 minutes left. there's been bugs and mistakes and people throwing us off guard. it's annoying to have our last show go wrong. bah. oh well. next time!